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So I had this bright idea that I was going to fast for 40 days like Jesus did when he was in the wilderness being tempted by the devil. My goal was to get closer to God and to read the bible more. So I decided that I would do the Daniel Fast since I have never fasted that long before. The Daniel Fast is a fast where you only eat fruits and vegetables and only drink water.
I went out brought my fruit, my vegetables, water, read up on the different kinds of meals I could have and planned my days out. No TV, no FB, no twitter, nothing but me and the bible! What a great way to spend my free time, with God! I was ready. I went on and started my fast, prayed that morning, read the bible and went on my way. Each day went the same, I would start off with prayer and end with prayer, reading the bible or books that dealt with the bible. Great job right, yeah well, here's the truth of the matter - instead of waking up an hour earlier to really spend time with God, I would sleep until the alarm clock got tired of sending me wake up messages and then pray while still laying in my bed, sometimes falling back to sleep while praying, then jump out of bed, read a quick scripture or two and start my day. Sure I would read the bible every time I was not doing anything, but the whole point of me spending more time with God was drowned out by how tired I always was and how busy my days and nights were. I ended up getting sick to the point where I needed antibiotics and I began to lose weight (so not what I needed, I'm skinny enough as it is). Despite all the craziness I pressed on telling myself that I was doing the right thing.
What I didn't realize was that I had never really asked God should I go on the fast in the first place. I ended up stopping the fast 16 days in because I was very sick, but also because I wasn't really fasting properly. Fasting takes discipline and that is one area I have some challenges with. The next time I decide that I want to fast, I am going to pray and ask God if it is in his will for me to fast and for how long. We always say that God is the head of our lives but how many of us really mean that.
Do we really ask God about everything? Do we trust him enough to let him lead us? I mean the no back-up plans kind of trust! I don't know about you but I forget more often than I would like to admit! You know the saying "God ain't through with me yet!" Well he's NOT lol! I have a long way to go, but thank God for his grace and mercy because I will keep on trying!
Don't be discouraged if you feel like you are off the path, just find your way back and let God lead you, his love conquers all! Thank God for his love!
Tomorrow I will attempt to wake up early, jog a little, I know... me jogging, lol! Hush! It can happen! Then I'm going to spend some much needed time with Daddy! Yep I'm a Daddy's girl! Me and his word will be chilling on the bench at the little walking park down the street from my house. No bed = no temptation! I love you Daddy and I am determined to do your will!
Til next time!
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